Why

Ever wonder why God blesses those who are so far away from Him and then seems absent from those that desire to be close to Him?

I do OFTEN...too often. I seek His face daily and cry out to Him, but for some reason God remains silent. I so wish He can just whisper "Zaida, just wait" or "I'm here, just hang in there" I have lost some of my faith and it saddens me that I have come to this point.

I know my God is great and can still do mighty things, but sometimes it seems that those mighty things are for everyone else but me. I know I'm being tested and I have failed, but I am so glad that He is always faithful to me even when I'm in this very long, deep valley.